The New Year

2010: I don’t even know what to say. My initial instinct is to laugh. Hmmm defense mechanism? Yes this was a life altering year for me, but what else can I say that hasn't been said already?  Not much; that’s made abundantly clear on my blog. So I’d rather write about the prospects for 2011:

I think it’s safe to say at this point in my life I am well schooled in trying to go with what life throws my way. I am well versed in mini pep talks to myself, finding my strength, hanging on to my faith (sometimes by a thread), and pushing through. But what I hope to gain (and as quickly as possible please dear God) is to….

…learn how to let go of expectations.

…try and recognize and understand the woman that I truly am and then hold THAT in a higher regard then the ugly thoughts of the past

…and oh yea if it’s not too much to ask, I want to learn how to just simply… BE. Just exist peacefully..... As an individual. Without empty excess; without anxiety; without guilt. I want serenity within.

2010

I’m totally copying this idea from my friend Rose… and just like her I dislike New Year’s resolutions so I never make them. HOWEVER, this year I am feeling the need for some changes and I’m definitely welcoming the New Year with open arms. The past 6 months have been very stressful (to say the least) for my husband and I. I’ll spare you some of the details, but it started in July with his car dying on us (leaving us one car with four people to get to four different places every day); after that the hits just seemed to keep coming. So in one way or another I am determined to have a better/happier year from here on out. Though I can say that the various roller coasters we’ve been on over the past few months have seemed to make our marriage even stronger, and for that I am extremely grateful.

Here’s my list of things I would like to improve upon in my life this year:

Stress management

Parenting

Alone/quality time with husband

Incorporating exercise as part of my lifestyle

I guess only time will tell if I actually follow through with any of this, but maybe it will at least give me more interesting things to blog about!